Reality is

I have finally (key word Finally) realized that no matter what I do or say, I can not fix other peoples problems. I have friends, family, kids, and many others who come to me about their
Marital Problems, finical problems, kid problems, and other problems. Last night after being up since 4am the morning before (because of the phone ringing) for my brother-in-law, who we have been trying so hard to help out and to help him get on his feet, (point here)-"People will not respect your house and your rules the way you do!" HELLO I am to old to be doing this. I am on the break of a heart attack or nervous break down, who know which one. I did this to myself, I have always let every one vent on me. I have never turned my back to anyone who had a problem. I am not saying that I am going to turn my life on anyone, but I have to understand to just be there for support and that I have got to stop trying to fix everyones problems. Yes I pray and I pray for everyone, but I always wonder if it is enough to just pray for them, but after last night and the way I felt I have realized prayer is going to have to be good enough. This ole' girls body just can't deal with all of it anymore. I think years of all this has just got to me, or the fact that I have been sick and maybe I'm not back to myself is part of it, but what ever it is sure doesn't feel good when it starts to hurt you. Maybe I am venting on here to much now, but atleast on here I can type and get it off of my chest, and if the other person doesn't want to read it they can just close the browser and forget about it, and if they do want to read it they can and wheter they comment or not is up to them. I have learned Prayer is going to have to be enough, I can't fix people and I sure can't fix them if they don't want to be fix or if they only want a short fix. Reminder to self MY God, then MY Family comes First ( My Husband and My Kids )